Beautiful day.

I'm alone today, I have the day off and Joel's working. I'm having fun. I bought a new swimming suit at Wal-mart, and hanging out by/ in the pool here. Had watermelon for lunch. Delicious. It's 30+ degrees out, what a great day. I think I'll take another dip, then maybe a nap.

Ummm...

Trying to think of something to post. It's a normal day. Have to work in 2 hrs. It's beautiful outside. I think Joel wants me to watch TV with him cause he put Family Feud on instead of Jon Stewart. I guess I'll go do that. Sorry for the stupid post. Have a good day.

Mother's Day

This is the second year in a row where I've cried on Mother's Day. For a little over a year now, I've had a strong, deep, desire to have a child. Circumstances, mostly financial, are preventing Joel and I from going ahead at this time. It makes total sense to my rational side as to why we would wait, but the feelings in my heart aren't listening to reason, so I've just been trying not to think about them. Usually I'm so busy with working that I don't think about it, but it's impossible not to on Mother's Day.

Father God,
I don't know if I should ask for a change our circumstances, or to change my mind, or to change the feelings in my heart. But I pray You will cause Your will to be done in our lives, and help me to be patient while you are doing it. I've come to understand that struggle is a fact of life for everyone, and it hurts. I pray for Your healing and comfort. Let Your will be done. Thank-you for your power, grace and love. Because of You, there is hope for me.
In Jesus name, Amen.

What do you think?

Lately, I've been wanting to post prayers on my blog, but before hitting the post button, something stops me. Would posting a prayer on here make me like a Pharisee praying loudly on a street corner?